If God Loves me

If God loves me
then i will have nothing to be afraid of.
but does he love me ?

I doubt it since i am sick and feel so unwell. People laughing at me, ignore me.

I dont feel well. I am sick. I cant stay in a hot place. I can be fainted, vomit, turn pale, cold sweat.

People doesnt know.
They thought God doesnt love me anymore.

I cried.
If u doesnt love me or want me anymore. For what reason i should be alive ?

People dont understand.
but You are my God.
you know i am really feeling unwell.
you know i cant tolerant hot place.
you know me, dont you ?

Do you still love me ?
Do you still want me ?

i have the thought to run away from ur people and you. Yes ! I can run from ur people but not you, i know.


Dear God.
please spare me your grace
love me more when i am weak
love me more when i am down
love me more when i am in faith less.
love me more when i doubt your love
love me more when no one loves me
love me more when people dont care about me.

Love me more.
is my request to you.

just love me more than you love others.