If I Could Choose To Die.

hey. It's me again.
If I Could choose to die.

If u know I am now in the most miserable stage ever in my life.
I am so sick of this.

 If anyone could sees that
I fake my smile all the time
I live my life like an idiot
I am not happy at all.

Hey.
do you know
i cant underatand the reason i am.alive
i cant understand it at all.

I dont know for what I am doing all this
I dont know for what I am crying over this life.

I dont know what is this life all about
I dont know

What is my mission ?
I guess I have nothing to do
I guess serving is a very stupid things to do
I guess research is a stupid method to seek knowledge. I guess learning should be just for fun
I guess working should be like playing, it should be fun
I guess I have to change my life
I guess I have to change everything
I guess I am going to change everything

I am done with this life
I am going to play like when I was a child
I am going to play
play play play play play.

I hate serving people
I just want a  simple life.
that feed myself
that make myself happy
Thats all.