I miss you.
How are u my dear.
I will be happy
If u are happy
Ur happiness is my happiness
Thats my prayer.
If love is self-less
If love is no longer about myself.
But about you.
I am sorry
For everything
That might hurt you.
I feel helpless that i couldnt
Hold u , hug u , look at u anymore.
I saw u ,
Looking at me.
that morning when i was heading to bathroom,
when i was queuing for foods,
Zone choir practice,
hymnal appreciation night.
i told God, i couldnt be so selfish.
If i could trade my happiness for urs
im willing.
even if i am crying all the time
even if i have to pretend like i am so happy.
even if i have to fake my smile.
even if i am ache to bleed
even if i am so little and seem so unimportant in ur life.
Saw u looking at me....
felt u tickling me.
But i just look away
I just ignored
I just walked away
I just turned my head.
i know thats was u.
how i wanna hug u.
Every cell of me is going after u
but my brain holds them tight
dear heart.. please stay right there
dont cry
dont feel it
Dont die....
but
i am dying like the flower
together with my love.
buried,
Deep down in my heart.
