How to tell what i feel now

Yes. How to tell.
I feel so suffocated 
but when i read about my December 2019 goal. I know it is achievable.

I am going to resign anyway.
no matter how i do it
how worse it will be
i will still want to do that.

31 December 2019
will be an end to my suffering.
an end to all m6 mistakes.

I have 26 months to go.

I must save up to Rm1500 a month in fixed deposit.

I must Pay Rm600 a month to clear off vehicle debt fast.

I must create heavy cash flow from now on.

I must sell the property by this year at Rm75000.

I must change my life. At all cost, I muat change it.