I cant be in Depression Anymore

hi. I have no one to talk to. I AM MENTALLY ALL ALONE.

I am humming a sad melody, a unknown song origins from my thought.

I am so tired
easily get tense up
I am tired
I WANT TO RUN AWAY.
I want to go away.

I want to stay far far away.
I want to make myself disappear for a week or two.
I am mentally tired.
I hate things and people.

I have decided not going to SYF.
I want a holiday, hiding myself.
in a hidden jungle.

I want to think again.
again and again.
what am i doing here.
I am not happy.

I want to be happy
I want someone to talk to and
someone who understands me..

hey.
he...y...
my heart whispers
to the silence
in the darkness
My sorrow expands
I am down
to the ground
with no force lifting me up
I am hurtful
as much as I know
I am torn
as much as I know
I am not happy
i am not
God, help me.

help me..