Today is Inanam church KKR.
And me , a sinner, chosen by God to interprete in a very important event , the centennial thanksgiving ceremony.
I was so worried, so scared, I have no faith in myself that I can get it done without anything happen.
I cant calm myself, i even have cold sweat , I can sit, i feel nausea. I feel so tense, scared and cant relax. I am afraif because I see it as my own problem, i forgot that i was just an instrument , God is my master.
Even prayer cant calm me because i have no faith at all.
then i pray again , i said " God, no matter i do , that not my glory, thats yours. even if i fainted later, thats ur problem, because i am just an lousy instrument.
I am thankful because u choose me over others to do this important job of yours. I am so weak, so scared because i seek for my own dignity and glory. now i surrender all to you, no matter what happen it has nothing yo do with me. because this is your glory. I really want to get it done peacefully, please be with me. amen.
Thanks God, finally the two hours passed nicely. i didnt nausea on the stage, i didnt make a scene like fainting. Thanks God for using me. Thanks god for loving me and choose me to interpretw in such a meaningful event.
I was born to be what God wants me to be. I am not as good as others, i have low self esteem in church. I have sins.
I have no friend in church. I have no ones.
But in one thing God lifts me up, he gives me the best i can give. He knows what i am good at..He choose me to sing his hymnal in prayer, no one does that but me. He choose me to be highly equipped with the gift of interpretation. He gives me talent in languages and thats makes me learn language in a fast speed.
I want to do this work for him forever, I want to be his interpreter as long as he wants me to. I want to make myself strong and fully equipped. I owe him for his acceptance. I owe him for his great love and forgiveness.
In him, I am the most useless..
In his house, I am smallest.
I dont even dare tospeak with my head up. I dont even dare to speak to people. I lock myself up. I am there for God, I am just a sinner who have no place at all actually.
And me , a sinner, chosen by God to interprete in a very important event , the centennial thanksgiving ceremony.
I was so worried, so scared, I have no faith in myself that I can get it done without anything happen.
I cant calm myself, i even have cold sweat , I can sit, i feel nausea. I feel so tense, scared and cant relax. I am afraif because I see it as my own problem, i forgot that i was just an instrument , God is my master.
Even prayer cant calm me because i have no faith at all.
then i pray again , i said " God, no matter i do , that not my glory, thats yours. even if i fainted later, thats ur problem, because i am just an lousy instrument.
I am thankful because u choose me over others to do this important job of yours. I am so weak, so scared because i seek for my own dignity and glory. now i surrender all to you, no matter what happen it has nothing yo do with me. because this is your glory. I really want to get it done peacefully, please be with me. amen.
Thanks God, finally the two hours passed nicely. i didnt nausea on the stage, i didnt make a scene like fainting. Thanks God for using me. Thanks god for loving me and choose me to interpretw in such a meaningful event.
I was born to be what God wants me to be. I am not as good as others, i have low self esteem in church. I have sins.
I have no friend in church. I have no ones.
But in one thing God lifts me up, he gives me the best i can give. He knows what i am good at..He choose me to sing his hymnal in prayer, no one does that but me. He choose me to be highly equipped with the gift of interpretation. He gives me talent in languages and thats makes me learn language in a fast speed.
I want to do this work for him forever, I want to be his interpreter as long as he wants me to. I want to make myself strong and fully equipped. I owe him for his acceptance. I owe him for his great love and forgiveness.
In him, I am the most useless..
In his house, I am smallest.
I dont even dare tospeak with my head up. I dont even dare to speak to people. I lock myself up. I am there for God, I am just a sinner who have no place at all actually.