Who is there at my back ?

I admit, I am alone physically.

I admit, I am afraid.



I wander, What makes me become so strong these days . It's my fear. I use strong attitude to cover my fear.

The weaker ur parents are, the stronger u become. Because that's ur only choice to survive. you swallowed ur tears, tell urself It wont die too then go ahead to face what makes u fear most.

U might be having tremors, still u wont show it on ur face. U are hurt, still u swallow it.

you cant talk about your fear.
you never let ur fear conquer or walk pass you. You never let being weak or born as a woman, a reason for you to look helpless. U learn to stand, all on ur own.

 you learn to cry , only when u are alone.

You have literally no ones at ur back. You have absolutely no ones to call in the moment of emergency. You have only urself.

Dear me, When I am afraid, I will call to God's name. Because his name makes me feel safe and secure. ( my tears fall when typing about God)

I would say " in jesus name i pray or in jesus name i surrender all, in jesus name , God please help me. " In his name , i feel peace.

In his name , there is my power. In his name, I lay my fear. In his name, I surrender all.

When God is my only option, to whom should i be afraid? Only to God.

I am a different child, I was raised my God, care my God.

I have a father. Who dwells in heaven.
Dear Lord Jesus, I cant take anything on my own anymore. Please Help me. "Help me chuseyo. "